Faith in humanity?

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The past few years I have been working a lot on myself. My inner growth. Getting to know the real me and what I came here to do. Or be.

Part of that process was loving myself again, accepting myself in every form and accepting where I am on my path.

Part of that process was being able to love other humans again the same way.

Part of that process was restoring my faith in humanity and hope for the future.

I have been looking and searching for my life purpose. I know it is all about Nature. The animals, the plants, the trees, everything. Mother Earth herself. Part of this was accepting the fact that we are a part of that beautiful nature. That I am a part of that. We are not a separate species, we are all connected and everything that happens to nature also happens to us. And the other way around. It’s a constant cycle.

This week I had some talks, with people, on how to be of service. We agreed that the only way I can truly be of service is to first take care of myself. And that is true, I cannot give from an empty well. And this is something people are understanding, take care of yourself first. But sometimes not in a healthy way, at least not in harmony with that which we are a part of. For me taking care of myself involves the not harming others in the process of that.

I have been feeling anger, resentment, pain, sadness, grief. I have been looking at how I can be a part of the change that needs to happen, if we are to survive as species, as planet, as system.

I realise that I can only do that by helping people understand that most important part of all: we are all connected. It is not just about us, not just about humans, the world doesn’t revolve around us. Us is them. Us is nature. Us is the planet.

In taking care of ourselves some people think that is in a material way. Especially in the so-called Western countries. And the other countries think they also need to be like that.

To me taking care of myself is simplifying, downsizing. Living in harmony with all. Growing internally, being rich internally. Growing as a human being, caring, compassionate, loving. Not harming others, animals, nature, the planet herself. That is what taking care of myself is about. Less stress, more time, more awareness, more living in the present. No attachments, no expectations. Just being.

My connection to humans has always been a fragile one, as I do have a love-hate thing going on with humans in general. And someone I talked to sensed that. She said that I don’t show my true self fully. And that is true. My trust in humans has been damaged so many times that I am always on guard somewhat. I almost never give myself 100%. There is always a part of me, probably my deepest core, that will not reveal itself. And in the claiming my lane part that is an “issue”.

But with working on my self-love and acceptance, I also slowly opened to my fellow humans more and more. Still not revealing the deepest parts of myself, but getting there. Step by step. And being gentle on myself along the way.

And I have seen beautiful examples of humanity. Especially when shutting out the every day (bad) news, I have been getting a more positive outlook on humanity. My faith being restored step by step. My love for humans started growing. I saw beautiful projects, individuals making a difference, collaborations to live more in harmony with all.

My hope grew over time. Yes, it is changing. And with that, I fell for the good-bad again. I started judging people who were still on that “old” energy. Including those around me.

So, what can I do about it? I can take them on journeys to become better persons. Make them aware of their true nature. Connect them to nature. I can do this. I can “change” them. I can “make” this happen.

And then, in one moment, I was thrown back in time. With one image that was shared on Facebook by National Geographic. The pain and horror of that image. I felt the pain and the fear of the animals in the picture. And with that one picture, my faith and hope in humanity was shattered. So angry, so sad. I cried so hard. How can people do this! Selfish little bastards. I hope that something will come to wipe away these stupid overbreeding parasites. I hope that nature will turn on humans and destroy them once and for all. We don’t even deserve to survive. Heartless, stupid, mutant monkeys. That was what was going through my mind.

At that point, I thought, that’s it. I am giving up. I will disconnect from everything and live my life out as a hermit, taking care of animals and plants. I don’t want to connect with humans ever again.

I had a terrible night, couldn’t really sleep, had nightmares.

In the morning, still crying every time the image came back to me, I was ready to just shut everything down, also disappear from the online world. I truly was done with it. But, in one of my groups, someone shared something about pulling through, even if everything seems to be against you. She called it Sisu, it is a Finnish thing. Wow. Ok.

So, I stopped, took a moment, wiped my tears and asked the Universe and the animals why they had shown me this picture. They said they had to show me this, to remember my deepest why. To go on and keep going. But to remember my path. That I was wandering of it again. Listening to others about “how I should” do things. They told me to start listening to that inner voice even more. And share from my heart and intuition. No planning, or overthinking. Just speak what comes to me. I was chosen by the animals and nature to speak for them. To be their channel, their bridge. And I should not wander off to doing something else.

To keep on going with my original plan, to reconnect people with nature. To connect to the other channels and bridges, that are pure and without hidden agendas. To create something bigger on this together.

So, here I am. Still crying over that image. Sending love and healing to the animals involved. And being neutral to the humans that were involved in this. I am not ready to show compassion, I need some more time on this, but at least I am no longer on the destroying humanity path.

And this? This is who I am. This is what I care about. This is claiming my lane.

Diana

Nature Guide?

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The last few days I have been feeling angry. Angry with myself, for not stepping into what I really love doing sooner. Angry with myself for always feeling so damn responsible for everything and everyone. Angry with myself for letting myself put my dreams on hold to take care of others. Angry with myself for having stepped into the being dependant on others trap. Angry with myself for making “wrong” choices when it comes to education and business. Angry with myself for expecting others to love and understand me, whilst I never was open and honest to myself. Angry with still believing my mother will start giving a “damn”.

As you can see, a lot of my anger is directed towards myself, for not being true to who I really am. For loosing myself along the way. I have been doing a lot of self-love and care on this, and forgiveness work.

I’ve tried to be angry with others, but that is not fair. I’ve never spoken up to them, always kept quiet to keep the peace. Because I don’t like conflict. I don’t like to be judged or blamed.
I’ve tried to be angry with humanity in general, and to a certain point I am, but I also know that to create any change in the world I want to see, I have to start with myself.

But still…. !Warning: start of a rant!

I don’t get humanity. Honestly, I don’t. I don’t get how we work. I often think we are a flawed step in evolution, because what species would ever destroy their own habitat? Or be so judgmental toward each other for reasons I will never get?

A species that follows books, written many centuries ago, by people that thought they had it all figured out back then. A species that has created a society that is so totally not logical to me.

Lately I have been seeing how we have created this big illusion for ourselves. We think we are free, but we are slaves to the system, slaves to money. We really are. And the situation I am in right now, is only reminding me of that.

Something on the news triggered this rant. About a certain group of people protesting to get more pay. I started thinking on this.

We have created a weird cycle, called economy. We all are being fed the bigger-better-more lies, and this is where it starts.

More pay, to buy more stuff we don’t need, food and drinks that are not even healthy for us, so we get sick and have to pay for healthcare, that again isn’t healthy for us, so we end up paying for even more healthcare. We of course need big cars to move all the stuff and food we don’t need, and even bigger houses to store all of that. We all need our “own space” with our own tv and everything. We need more pay to buy the newest of the newest, while the old is still perfectly fine. We have to buy the big tv to watch the 8 o’clock bad news, and horrible series and movies with death and destruction, or about unrealistic love relationships. But wait, luckily companies like Coca Cola and MacDonald’s come in between to tell you that to be happy you have to buy their food and drinks. Or that you will be the most attractive woman with that perfume. And the most wanted man with that deodorant. And of course, you have to get the latest fashion, even if your closet is already overloaded. And the newest line of beauty products, filled with chemicals and that mess up your hormone system. Oh wait, those chemicals are also in our foods, so why bother. Oh, and all of it is obviously wrapped in plastic, individually, that will end up in our food chain again. Darn, we still aren’t happy. Well, let’s do a few holidays a year. To tropical destinations, to end up at a resort where you will never see the actual country and culture. Darn, still not happy. Let’s buy more stuff. Oh, we need more pay for that. We will just work harder. Oh, wait, now we have stress. Now we have to do all kinds of stuff to relax. Go to a spa, visit entertainment parks, zoos, get massages, go on meditation courses, learn yoga and mindfulness. And guess what? We still aren’t happy! Something must be wrong with us. Maybe we have some sort of childhood trauma. Maybe we can drown ourselves in addictions, alcohol, drugs, medicine, tv, social media, sex, gambling. And back to health care it is, this time mental health care. Therapists, sleeping pills and anti-depressives. Self-help books and false guru’s that sell the latest trends to get more spiritual. Guess what? Still not happy. Let’s get a dog. Or more. Or a cat. No, wait, a horse! Oh, maybe a pig. And a parrot. And a few bunnies. Mmmm, still not working. Maybe kids are the answer. Let’s have some of them. Darn, it isn’t working. I wonder why. Oh, let’s get some help on that. Yeah, it worked! I am happy now! But, wait, how can I make enough money now? Oh, we will just hire a nanny, get them to do all kinds of afterschool activities. Wow, kids are expensive, they are so demanding, they want all of this stuff, I don’t know where they get this from, they are so ungrateful! Can’t they just leave me alone? And they are so disconnected! It’s like they don’t hear me. There must be something wrong with them. Let’s get them a label, so we can put some meds in them. And my partner is so unsupportive and having an affair! Divorce time! Let’s hire a lawyer. Wow, they are expensive….. need to work harder to pay for that. Auch, what is that pain on my chest….. why are they calling 911?

Wow….. when all of this was going through my mind, I kept seeing Charlie Chaplin in that scene from Modern Times where he is working the machine and gets completely swallowed by it. This film is from 1936! And we have been only living life faster ever since. We don’t even have time to think for ourselves anymore! And that’s exactly what the big people who are in charge of everything want.

But, still, people are waking up. Slowly. Like me. I have been stepping out of the system more and more since a few years, trying to find a more natural rhythm, and my way of doing things.

And the more I step out, the more aware and awake I become. How we are being fed by the media, big companies and politicians all the time. To keep us busy. Because once you step out, you start thinking for yourself. And see the big lie we are living, and the false freedom we think we have.

This year especially, with writing my book, going inside, and realising so many things about my life, and life in general, my eyes have been opened. And I feel more awake than ever.

And with this I also realised what brings me the most joy of all. And that is just being. Being with other pure humans, through loving connections. Being in nature, with nature, with the animals. Slowing down, really slowing down. Listening to slow music. Taking my time to wake up, do my morning rituals, and find what brings me joy. Realising that what we really need isn’t in the material stuff. It is in the connections, it is in the heart, it is found in love.

With the selling of the house and getting a divorce, the craziness of these systems even hits me more. We are basically selling stuff that never belonged to us in the first place. Land? Who are we to claim this is ours? Nobody owns the land but the planet herself. But still, we buy and sell it as it was ours alone. Houses? Made of material given to us by Mother Earth? Fuel? We are draining the fossil fuels, and even going to war over them. But they were never ours to sell in the first place! Just think about it. Who are we to do all of this? And what do we give our oh so generous Mother in return? Nothing but waste, pollution, extinction of some of her children. And we are literally draining and suffocating her. And we keep fighting her ways of trying to control our population.

I believe that if we all become aware of the craziness we have created for ourselves and get real, she can sustain all of us, even some more. But we will HAVE to change to do so.

I believe that if you reconnect to nature, you will find back your true nature, and will find what really makes you happy. And that isn’t in material form. Because we have forgotten we too are part of nature. We are animals, we are mammals. Our brains just work in ways we don’t even understand ourselves.

The planet, the animals, nature, they have been giving me messages all year. That it is time to simplify, on every level. That it is time to slow down. Time to do honest labour again, on the land. We were not meant to sit all day; our bodies were not built for that, our minds need it to release and relax. The importance of community came up, and I am not the only one who has been receiving these messages.

Community in the form of living real-life communities, not just online, working together from a place of mutual respect and love for the planet. Not like the old hippie-free love communities, but with like-minded souls that also realise things need to change. Working together with the land, the seasons, the tides. Respecting the planet and all living creatures. Not using more than we need, and share the natural abundance.

To let go of this system that has made us greedy, hungry for things that we don’t need, that are not healthy for us.

I often wonder what I can do in all of this, besides making some drastic changes myself. I have been thinking about this a lot. Also for my business. Just today I saw a video about an eco-village, and one person said: if you stop working that 9-5 job you hate to buy stuff you don’t need, and start living a more natural life, than there will be no more life on and off the work floor. These things will fade away. There will just be life. My heart skipped a beat when I heard that. Yes…. That’s it. Just life.
I see so many suffering all around me, physically, mentally, emotionally. And I believe the society we have created ourselves is at the root of all of this. But pure connections, from the heart, living with the Earth and the animals, all in harmony? I feel lots of suffering will fade away if we start making changes like that.

I’ve been struggling myself with all of this in my business, in my money mindset. So many people I am connected with right now, are all about more, bigger, better. The word heart-centred had me fooled, as most of them are still caught in the prison of the old system that is not sustainable in the long run. All the marketing, all the selfishness. Only ready to do something if there’s something in it for them. I run into resistance on that part every time. And yes, I too am selfish, because I feel the need to protect that what gives me the most joy in life: Nature. I have been falling into the money trap myself, and yes, it is energy, it is exchange, but why more than I need? I can’t take it with me when I die? And I’ve been believing the limiting beliefs they told me I had around money. Maybe I have them, but what if my mindset is on a different level than theirs?

I have even been cancelling my contributions to charities, as I feel they just don’t work. They were just a way to ease my conscious. But did they make a difference? If anything, most of the things they stand for have gotten worse over the years. So, what is the use? And corporate has also been infecting the bigger charities, where CEO’s, advertising, marketing and more use up most of the funds. If you are lucky, 10 cents of your donated euro or dollar will reach the actual cause. Craziness. This system has proven it doesn’t work. More and more animals go extinct, poverty is still big, and diseases are more present than ever, climate change is moving faster under our influence. And all they do is pump money in working on healing the wounds, putting on band aids, but not enough is funded to see what the root of it all is.

I am seriously thinking of going for something like an eco-village, as of all the things I have looked at so far, this resonates the most with me. Or a tiny house. And although I would love to travel some, it also is in conflict with my need to live a more sustainable life. I don’t need to travel, that is for sure. And maybe, if I live in a place I really love, that really resonates with me, the need for travel will fade anyway.

I am not expecting for all of this to change overnight, but I am making small steps towards all of this. Time to truly walk my talk.

And if you are reading this and it is triggering something in you? Maybe it is time for you to start making the changes too. Step out of the system. Find what truly makes your heart and soul sing. And my job is done. I have guided you back to (your true) nature.

Diana

Freedom?

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A while ago, a fly was trapped inside the house. I opened the window and set it free. Go, fly to freedom, I said to the fly. As I watched it fly off, until I could no longer spot it, I got this feeling. It just came over me. Freedom. And how I long for this.

I am reading an amazing book, A Path with Heart, by Jack Kornfield. In this book, he talks about naming your demons, the things that keep us from feeling at ease with ourselves and in life. One of the demons is doubt. He divides these in small and big doubts. The small doubts are the things you say to yourself, like I am not worth it, I am not enough. Things like that. You can work on them, and fairly easily shift them.

The big doubts however are signs that you are waking up to a new level of awareness. I am having one of those big doubts at this time, although I believe I had them earlier in life too. But the big doubt I am having right now is on the concept of freedom.

I read a post somewhere, and the question was asked what you would do if you knew you only had a short while to live. Most of the people responded: spend time with loved ones. And yes, that is important for sure, and although I would want to make sure my pets would have a great home, the first thing that entered my mind was travel.

I have been dreaming about traveling the world since I was a kid. Books got me traveling to a certain extent, and so did watching tv. But it wasn’t until I went abroad for the first time, to London with school, I noticed how much I love traveling. Seeing the world, other cultures, history, future. Nature everywhere.

And although I have travelled somewhat over the years, my biggest travel dreams still haven’t come true.

I am a deep thinker, a philosopher if you will, and went on thinking about this freedom aspect in my life. In our lives. How free are we really? Watching that fly take off. Watching the birds in the sky. Free to go wherever they want.

We can’t do that. We are being smothered by rules and regulations, borders and countries, limitations we have put onto ourselves as species. We let fear hold us back from truly being free. Fear of other cultures and religion, fear of terrorism, fear of spreading diseases, fear of …. everything?

Right now, I am in the process of selling the house and getting a divorce. Not because we hate each other, not because there is any form of abuse, not because we are cheating on each other. None of that. But, we have grown apart.

It isn’t even easy to get a divorce. And start a new life. Again, the rules and regulations.

So, again. What is freedom? Aren’t we all prisoners? Of the society we created ourselves?

Slaves to the economy? Slaves to money?

A society that is addicted to bigger, better, more, expansion and growth? And what is that bringing us?

I can’t grasp the concept of money anymore. Some say it is just energy. And it is mostly digital. If an EM pulse or Solar Flare from outer space wipes out our systems…. Where would the money go? Gone… And what then? Will an apocalypse start? Or will this be like the universe testing us on if we truly will support and help each other. Share. Like it happens after a natural disaster.

Freedom. Compared to other parts of the world, I can experience relative freedom.

But… freedom of religion? I think religion is causing the opposite. Living by rules from a book that someone probably mistranslated and then got misinterpreted by the readers? Why else would there be so many religions? Why don’t the animals ever talk about God to me? Or Allah? Or anything in that area actually. Why do we need to learn about religion? Does it mean it just isn’t there? Don’t get me wrong, I consider religion and faith as two different things. Animals have faith. In life. In the planet. In themselves.

Freedom of speech? Yeah, not really. I wonder how many of us actually truly say what they want to say, me included. Again, the fear comes on. Fear of hurting others, fear of being judged, or even worse, fear of being imprisoned or murdered for spreading your words.

And then there are all the boxes and labels. All created so we are able to create products or services to sell.

Next issue: when I start thinking about the things we sell, especially land, animals, foods. They were never ours to sell in the first place. They don’t belong to us. They were given to us by nature. But we are a greedy species. We want more. We even shout it at the end of a concert. We want more. Always more.

And then there is the media, the circus. It tells us all kinds of stuff, but how much of that is truth. Is it their truth? Who are they? Saying the world is a dangerous place, people are dangerous. The world is a place of suffering and pain. Oh, wait, time for a commercial break. Drink Coca Cola, it will make you happy. And the brains are washed again.

You don’t need Coca Cola, but you think you do. And so, we get trapped into the system of needs and wants. John Lennon sang it: Imagine no possessions, I wonder if you can…. Can you? When you honestly look at what you need? That isn’t that much. But we get tricked into thinking that the things we want are also the things that we need. And we let ourselves be tricked.

Mother Earth gives us everything for free, expecting nothing in return. But what do we give her? Exploitation, overpopulation, pollution, torture, suffocating. And she shakes, and spits fire, and tries to blow us away. Again and again, we stand up, we survive. We are so stubborn, hard to get rid of. Like cockroaches. By the way, I like cockroaches, they are amazing creatures.

The lives we live are an illusion. We think we need big houses. Yes, to store all the stuff we think we need. To create our “own” space. I looked at the shopping carts of people yesterday, and thought, wow… how many of that do they really need. Not much actually.

And what we actually do need? Connection, touch, love. Be honest, when do you feel happiest and most alive? For me that is in nature, being with animals, or spending time with like-minded souls, talking about life, and hugging, kissing and just sharing the love. From the heart. Free from judgment and expectations. When you feel bad, that you can reach out to someone. When you experience loss, knowing someone is out there to give you a shoulder to cry on. Just being there for each other.

I have heard a lot of spiritual people and people in tune with the bigger energies going on say that community will become more and more important in the future. I agree. But that can only happen if we let go of the system as it is today. When we truly will be able to share from a place of love. And not exploit the other.

But, we keep the system alive. A system that doesn’t work. That doesn’t make you happy or satisfied. Always leaving you empty and wanting more. Everything always from the outside.

Everything online, in the media, will make you feel empty and worthless. Because you don’t count if you are not successful, earning loads of money, are famous, or have invented something that changes the world. If you are not striving for more, bigger, better. If you don’t want to enter the rat race or are not competitive. The expansion never seems to end.

And still we will feel empty. With all our stuff, and big houses, and big cars, and big bank accounts.

Growth to me is something quite different. To me it is inner growth. Developing my inner wisdom. My need for no needs. Success to me is something different. If this blog touches just one soul to start thinking about the illusion we have created for ourselves, then this is a success.

I know, this is big, deep stuff. Too deep for most. I don’t care. This is what is going on for me, and I need to write it down and spread it.

Just stop for a moment and think. Look around. What have we created? All of us together? Are you happy? Fulfilled? Loving your life? Or are you forever searching outside to fulfil those needs.

Do you really care if there will be a planet in the future that is healthy? Where we can still live? Or our children can still live? Do you really care about animals going extinct (yes, that is forever, no return)? Living in the now doesn’t mean you should only think about your own needs, and not see what your actions might cause in the long run.

The animals have been giving me the message to simplify. And I will. I will start living by the rules of nature, of what she asks of me. I will not fall into the bigger, better, more trap. I will downsize. Get rid of most of my stuff. Back to basics. And yes, some things I cannot change, they are too big. Like the existence of countries and borders. Like the fact that it costs money to get a divorce. That it costs money to live somewhere and buy food. But… I can try to make the first steps towards change.

They say freedom is a state of mind. I disagree. When I look at our society, I don’t think freedom is a state of mind. We are all prisoners and slaves to a system we keep alive ourselves. And the ones with the power, they keep feeding us. Bread and games. Just like the Romans did. Keeping the sheople in line. And we keep falling for it. We keep giving away our power.

I think back to that moment with that fly. Yes, it may not live a long life, but at least it is a free life. Yes, it ends up with death, and must face all kinds of danger. But it does so out of free will. We also end up meeting our death one day, and face all kinds of dangers. But even those we are fighting against.

I don’t know. Maybe I’ve got it all wrong. I just look at nature, the animals. They are free. The only price they have to pay is at our hand.

So, I will start making changes. I have to start somewhere. Society and our economy as it is now, is no longer sustainable, something needs to change. And maybe it’s these big doubts that will set in motion a chain of events that will change the world.

I may be a dreamer, but I also know I am not the only one. Maybe it is time to start realising those dreams.

Namaste.

Diana

Happenings and celebrations

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I can’t believe it’s been a month since I reached out, or published anything! Time really does fly.

But this time in a very joyful way. Filled with things I love to do. Writing, planning things to become more visible, meeting people in real life, giving in-person workshops. I feel like I have had all kinds of mini-breakthroughs since my last blog. And most importantly, fell back in love with myself and life. I had been missing that in my life.

I just wanted to give you an update on what is happening/coming:

  • Coming Saturday I will do my first healing/meditation session with the Vibrant Sensitive Healing Circle that I run with Karin Monster-Peters. In this first month, we are working on healing our bodies, I will guide you on a healing journey together with Mother Earth, our great Nurturer. You can join at any time, read more on THIS page.
  • I am writing a series of blogs, the Art of Letting Go, inspired by my own journey since the beginning of 2017, where indeed I had to let go of so much, and detach on several levels. But this gave me so much peace, clarity, and above all space for being and expressing myself fully.
  • Next Tuesday, September 26th, I am doing Speedreadings for Charity again, if you want a spot, I have only two left. You can read more on THIS page. I am doing these until the end of 2017, and after that I am no longer giving individual animal talk consults. My path is guiding me in a different direction.
  • Registration for the next round of my membership group Down to Earth Spirituality is coming up, this month we went on a deep heart-healing journey with Rose Quartz, in October Comfrey will be joining us. For the first time a plant, interesting to see what it will bring us. Read more on THIS page.
  • Next week I am a Member in the Spotlight on Project Positive Change. Every day, except Sunday, I will be doing a live stream on their Facebook page, and will share meme’s and blogs and other inspirational posts on there. Maybe you can support me 🙂 You can find the Facebook page over HERE. I am proud to be a member of PPC.
  • I am currently creating a course on Nature Communication. I am getting the details refined, and as soon as I have this clear I will share the page with you, but I will share some more on this in my Member in the Spotlight.
  • I have completed the first part of my upcoming book Around My World With 80 Spirit Animals for editing. As I am now focusing more on my writing I trust I will get the complete manuscript done somewhere in the first quarter of 2018. I have created a separate Facebook page for my writing journey.
  • October 17th, I will be a guest on the Positive Vibes show, together with Karin Monster-Peters from the Vibrant Sensitive and Sam Livermore, the Gladiator of Love and the founder of the Share the Loveletters movement. Our host is Pete Cossaboon, the Angel Encourager. I will share this event as soon as I have more details. It will be on Pete’s Facebook page, and it is at 4 pm CET.
  • The weekend of October 21st I will be attending the Healing Path Workshop in the Lake District, with Daniel Mapel and the Wild Earth Animal Essences. I am very much looking forward to this journey and workshop.
  • I have an interview planned with the beautiful Sashka Hanna-Rappl for her Podcast. You can join her podcast over here. I don’t know when it will be aired, but I will let you know.
  • November 12th, I will be giving an in-person workshop introduction Animal Communication. This is by invitation, and the one organising it will promote the workshop. This is in the Netherlands and will be in Dutch. I want to do more of these in the future, so if you are interested, contact me and we can see if we can arrange something.

And much more is in the making.

Most importantly I feel so much flow and joy now in what I am creating. And all because of getting clear on my why and purpose. I have been struggling for many years on what to do, how to do it, how to show up, but once I stepped back, went inside, it became clear.

You see, the things I have been doing so far didn’t feel quite right. I mean, I love connecting, especially to animals, but I felt like I still was putting on band aids. Or making people dependant on my services. And what I want to do most of all is to inspire people to do it all themselves. I don’t want to solve your problems, I don’t want to close your gaps, or point out your pain points. I most of all want you to go inside and find the answers for yourself. I may guide a bit on this, with the help of nature and the animals, but above all I would love for you to become aware of your own uniqueness.

And this is how I feel you will also realise more and more how we are all connected, and that everything you do in life impacts the other in one way or another, including the planet and the animals. Once you start connecting to your true nature, get rid of all the outer layers and start loving yourself again, in all your glory, then you will also stop the need for bigger, better, more “stuff” to fill the holes of your soul, and that will benefit everyone.

My goal has never been to be rich or successful in numbers, I only ever wanted to inspire and make you aware of your own story.

So, this means stepping back from one-on-one work, into group work, writing, teaching and inspiring.

You see, it is not about me, it is not to feed my ego, it is about this bigger plan that we are all a part of. The higher calling of all of humanity, of the planet, the animals, all are involved, we are evolving together.

I will share much more the coming weeks, but if you feel that the path I am now on is not for you feel free to unsubscribe, unlike, or unfollow me. It is ok to no longer resonate with what I do and offer.

If, however you want to be inspired, please keep in touch, and connect to me if you have any questions. Or just want to say hi 🙂

For now, I hope you have a great day, no matter what time it is when you read this. And please share/pass this on to people you think might be interested.

Much love and light to you all,

Diana

After the eclipse

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Wow, what an intense period this is. The energies… the eclipses, the fires in the heavens, the Blue Storm wavespell.

I feel broken and beaten, I have been through so much lately, and that ended in me having a physical scare last Saturday. It made me realise I have been fooling around again. Not being totally honest with myself and others. Not aligned with what I truly want and what my purpose is in life.

I had a few days where I felt so much fear, panic, anxiety. Old, really old wounds opened up again. Fears I thought I had gone through over the past few years. Fear of failure, fear of dying young, not being enough, not doing enough, not fulfilling my purpose.

I think it was coming, the signs were there. I stopped playing the harp, stopped singing and dancing, not wanting to connect to people, including my husband, not enjoying life. I was comparing myself to others big time.

I was stuck in a place of survival. In many areas. I wasn’t thriving. I was laughing it all away, not wanting to go there and admit I wasn’t doing as ok as I let myself and others believe.

I went for the oh, others have it much worse than me, trap again. As I have done many times in my life. Writing my book really lets me see that pattern.

So, this morning, in the aftermath of the eclipse, I knew it was time to make some tough decisions. To stop and change some things. In life and business. And I know that in doing this I am giving myself space to create something that is even better in alignment with my souls’ purpose.

It felt like failure though. But, as with everything in life, it is ok to change my mind, to break down certain things and start building something new. Like the Spider that builds up her web again after the storm destroyed it.

I know I have to. The health scare and almost having no money at this time are clear signs to me it is time to make some big changes. I know if I don’t the Universe will do it for me in not so gentle ways.

It is all about finding my joy, my ease and effortlessness, my passion and flow. So, this morning I sat down and went through what brought me those. I had a reading last week with someone, who could sense that my Solar Plexus was low in energy, but that my basic colour was yellow-orange. The colour of joy and light.

This is not the first time somebody has shared this with me, or seen this with me. They all see this fire, this light, but it is dimmed.

She also sensed my connection to the animal kingdom, and the fact that I divide animals and humans. Weird, right? I preach we are all the same, but honestly? I place animals above humans many times. So, there is a lesson in there for me.

One of my biggest lessons in life is to love myself, be gentle to myself, and above all, follow my inner wisdom. I have been caught up most of my life in the should and must do things. Every time I wanted to make a big decision on something, other people would talk me out of it. I wanted to be liked and approved by others so much, that in the end I most of all ended up pleasing everyone but myself.

So…. back to the drawing board again. What do I really love to do, where do I feel alive and passion:

  • Animals. Learn about animals, nature, plants, trees. All of it. I am like a sponge. I love it. And I love sharing about it.
  • Music. Music can move my heart and soul, in ways the spoken word never could. I mean, would a movie be just as good without the music? Or a nature documentary for that matter?
  • Writing! Oh yes. Writing. And the fact that I don’t get to it as much as I would like is stressing me out.
  • Talk about the deeper meanings of life, on what’s going on with the energies. Deep, profound talks. I am a bit of a philosopher.
  • Walk. I love to walk. Especially in nature. Climbing a hill (not mountains because of my poor stamina haha).
  • Just be. Sit (or walk) and listen. Be in stillness.
  • Be a channel: the things I create for my membership group, the meditations, my writing. These are truly guided. I never know what will come, I just let it come. And it is truly effortless, I don’t have to think about it.
  • Spend time with wonderful people, but the right ones. Finding my tribe. But also honour my need for self-time, and be okay with that. No more excuses. Just saying I need some alone time.
  • Watching sunrises and sunsets in faraway countries, spending time on a train. I love to travel and learn about new people, countries, cultures. And I really miss that.

I feel I have been creating a lot of things for others, because I had learned that I must do something, offer something of value. But. Am I not enough? The things I just wrote down. That should be enough. And it is. More than.

Now, what does this mean for my work? My business? My life?

We are in the midst of selling our house, and we are not sure on where to go next. I don’t even know where to put my relationship with my husband right now. I am still exploring what this means. So, committing to a new house and mortgage is a bit overwhelming. But I know I really want more nature, and more quiet, so maybe temporarily move into a recreational home for instance. We will see, and I am not alone in this. This needs more exploring and clarity.

In my business, well, this needs some big reviewing indeed. I have been doubting continuing the animal communication sessions for pets for a while now, but every time people were like, oh, no, don’t stop, you are so good at it! So, I continued. But, no more, I feel I need to use this gift in another way. So, yes, this might come as a shock to some of you, but I will discontinue the animal communication sessions with pets.

This will also mean I will stop doing the Speedreadings for Charity. I will find another way to support my favourite charity in this. I will do them the rest of the year, but stop them in 2018.

You see, I no longer want to do it for you. I want to do it with you, empower you to learn yourself. I don’t want to give you the answers, I want you to find them yourself.

This will be much more powerful and improve the bond with your animal and nature big time.

So, this is something I will start creating, but I will let this grow organically. Effortless 🙂 With joy and ease.

I will continue being the messenger for animals and nature, always, but do that through writing blogs and books, and through my membership group Down to Earth Spirituality. I really want to do more with that and explore the options in there.

I will start recording the meditations I already have gotten through and combine those with nature sounds and music I will make myself.

I am going to explore giving workshops in real life, maybe together with others. The options of creating nature- and medicine walks. And maybe organising retreats together with other beautiful souls.

In September I will be starting the Vibrant Healing Circle with Karin Monster-Peters and this will be a good way for me to learn to co-create.

So, that is where I stand right now. This is what I am going to explore the coming months.

As always, with love and light,

Diana

 

 

 

Speedreadings for Charity and Rose Quartz in the Down to Earth Group

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Hello everybody!

Two short announcements for you:

First: Next Tuesday I will be doing short readings with pets for charity again. I have 7 spots left. Read more about it on this page and claim your spot.

Second: We are just about to enter the closing week with Bumblebee in the Down to Earth Spirituality Group, and already looking forward to working with a very different kind of energy, that of a crystal: Rose Quartz. Read more about that on this page and register for September.

Looking forward to being of service again!

Love and light,

Diana

Vibrant Sensitive Healing Circle

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Hello beautiful soul!

I have some exciting news to share with you!

One of my biggest wishes has always been to co-create with others. To combine talents and strengths and together create more magic than we could alone.

And wishes do come true! The start of something new! The birth of a healing circle!

I was asked by someone I met last year to do this, and I proudly accepted. And yes, this is stepping out of my comfort zone big time, but at the same time really answering the call of my soul!

That someone is the amazing Karin Monster-Peters from the Vibrant Sensitive movement. I met Karin last year, first online trough a group we were both in on visibility, then we joined the same Mastermind, and finally we met in real life in the fall, at an event in Bruges. Mind you, we both live in the Netherlands, so how special is that! But we both work online and with people from all over the world, because we just love to be limitless in that way.

I was fascinated by her insight and knowledge on humans and the human mind, especially the sensitives and gifted ones. And she was fascinated by my work with animals and nature.

So we kept in touch, I joined her free group, she joined my membership group. And soon we realised we can truly complement each other. It’s like combining heaven and earth! She has an amazing presence on video, she is truly vibrant, I am like a walking Mother Earth, bringing calm and groundedness.

We have a lot of the same beliefs, and we both share a passion for higher energies, and are very in tune with those.

So when she started talking about setting up a healing circle, I really felt drawn to it. Not to join as a member, but in the back of my mind I felt like joining as a facilitator. But I was afraid to ask. So, when she asked me, it immediately was a yes for me!

The healing circle itself will be online, via a closed Facebook group, and twice a month we will host a healing. These will be done via Zoom, and is most powerful if you attend live, but it will also be recorded and placed in the group. We will combine our energies, gifts and talents in this.

And in between create and hold a beautiful space for you to share about your experiences. This is actually something we both are really good at, creating a safe and sacred space for you.

This all for just € 35,00 per month!

You can read more about this amazing collaboration between two kindred souls and sign up on this page.

Healing is so needed, also globally, but you can’t heal the world if you do not heal yourself first. And it will be in beautiful, loving, joyful and still very powerful way.

Consider this a gift to yourself!

Love and light,
Diana

Success, Money and Abundance?

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Oh, the life of an entrepreneur. And how it challenges me.

At times I feel like I am close to a burn out, and that is what I wanted to escape most of all when I left my well paid daytime job. When I started following my dreams. Or at least, the dreams I had at the time.

My calling to work with animals and nature will always be there, but maybe I am not meant to do it as an entrepreneur. Or at least not in the classic sense of what being an entrepreneur is, even heart-centred ones.

Yesterday I watched this video, already from 2014, about a man who quit money. And it so resonated with me. So many things he said made so much sense to me.

I am not a business woman. I suck at marketing and sales. I hate building websites and creating memes. I don’t want a booming career. I don’t want to be successful in the way most people see it. I am not about more, bigger, better. More the other way around, less, simplify, stillness, contentment.

One day I hope to be able to say when people ask me what I do: nothing. I am.

All this stuff around success, greatness, bigger. It is giving me so much stress. It is bringing up limiting beliefs and blocks. That I maybe even never had! If you don’t want succes, more money, being famous, than you lack self-worth. I what? So, yes, of course, I believed that.

But you know what? I don’t lack self-worth. Not in that sense. My connection to nature is the most valuable I have, but I don’t want to put that into terms of money.

My husband often says I don’t understand economics. He is partly right, partly wrong about that. Technically I understand how economics work, but I don’t understand its use. And that is where the video mentioned above comes in.

Because, when I look at nature, I see a whole different system. Nature doesn’t need money, or economics. It would even do better without these manmade constructions. “We devalue nature, because everything in nature is for free”, he says in the video. And that is so true.

When you look closer at nature, it is the most succesful, abundant, grand system I know.

There is a constant exchange of energy, resources. There is no need for payment. Nature holds its own, as long as we don’t try to interfere or control.

I was thinking about this, reflecting this on myself. Money is energy they always say, and yes, that is true, certainly nowadays, with all the digital money. And if it is energy, why need it at all? What if there was no money, the pressure of having to make it to only give it away again. What if we all were to just work and produce from a place of caring and giving. Much like native tribes do.

My husband at that point would then say, yes, come off your Utopian cloud and become real.

But, just look at nature. Is nature Utopia then? No. It’s very real. You can touch it, feel it, see it, smell it. And it sustains itself. Again, if we don’t interfere.

Abundance is all around, if we can step out of the bigger, better, more mindset.

All the people I have come in contact with over the years since starting my business are in that mindset. Wether they want to admit it or not. Will they give freely? Yes, but only if they have enough to give. So, they condition their ability to give. Only if.

What is success? When I see I’ve inspired someone with my writing, that is success to me. When I see someone picking up a spider and transporting it outside because it is a living being, that is success to me. When I send a message to someone about a tune in session for their cat, and they reply there is no need, because they are in a good place together, that is success to me. When I hear about people eating less meat, that is succes to me. When I give to someone without wanting or expecting anything in return, that is success to me.

On a call I attended yesterday someone said that we should stop healing, but instead inspire someone to start healing themselves. That spoke to me. Big time.

A lot of the work I do and did comes from a place of wanting to help, but so often I realise that everything I do is just putting a band aid over the wound, and not really helping them in the end. It is temporary. What I would love most is to inspire people to start healing themselves. To start that inner process. To turn towards nature for inspiration. To slow down. Stop being part of the rat race. Listen to themselves. Stop the temporary adrenaline rushes. The feeling you will get from attending events with people like Tony Robbins, it is temporary. After you leave it lingers on for a while, but eventually it will fade, and people will go after the next rush. Resulting in adrenal fatigue, burn-out and depression. Because they keep looking on the outside. And the answers are found within.

So, again I retreat. Me being human and therefore having some sort of sense of wanting to belong keeps me looking for a “group” I feel at home with. Call it my tribe if you willl. But every time I feel like it’s not “it”. I keep missing the link to nature, the slower pace. To be a real changemaker. Not just put a new label on an old system.

What do I truly want? Less, declutter, letting go of the shoulds. Inspire others through writing. Through teachings. Taking people into nature to see what is real. And just be. That is what I want most of all. Just be.

Love and light,

Diana

Questions?

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I know the blogs I have written lately were mostly about me and my journey, and not so much about what I do.

But, the more I go on these soul journeys, the what I do seems to be less important more and more. I’ve even been thinking about answering I am Diana to the question what do you do. Kind of like I am Groot. That’s all you need to know really. He was the only character in Guardians of the Galaxy I really liked. Just because he was Groot. Nothing more, nothing less. But in the end, he saved the day, and just Groot was the most important member of the team.

This week I read a few posts and blogs on transformation. The energies are intense right now, you don’t even have to be in the spiritual realm, or in any kind of awareness movement to sense that.

I do believe we are in a very transformational period right now. As mankind, as a whole. Maybe caused by us, maybe not. They are all cycles, life is all about change, transformation and cycles. To resist those, is like swimming against the stream or flying head into a storm.

The blogs and posts I read were about the fact that people in business sell transformation. That it is not about what and how you sell, even if you sell at all, it is not even about the process of them going through your sessions, or your courses, it is what happens afterwards. The transformations, the shifts, the changes. No matter what they are and how deep they go. Because, even if you didn’t get the result you wanted, or they expected something else, the change has taken place. The moment you get in contact it already does. For both of you by the way.

Maybe the things they’ve learned from you will sink in later. They will get the aha-moments months after they worked with you. And that is just beautiful. And you will learn how to maybe do things a bit different, it always goes both ways.

But, we are so caught up in getting results, acknowledgement, testimonials. So busy with what I do is the best, come work with me, I promise you this or that.

So, what if we just let go of the outcome? Would you ask a testimonial from a friend you’ve helped? Or a family member? Maybe just being you has been lifechanging for them, but you don’t think twice about helping them. You just do. Because they are your friend or family member. You wouldn’t dream of getting a testimonial.

I feel that in business we basically could do the same. Just work with that person, or in my case pass on the messages from nature and the animals, write my books, create my meditations, and just let it be. Job done.

I’ve heard many times months later, or even years later, that what I did has made such a huge difference. And I love that. It means I’ve just planted some seeds, and they have grown in their own time. Job done. Not about me, my ego or anything. I’ve done what I came here to do. Transform.

Too many times we are focussed on instant results, on quick fixes. It doesn’t work like that. Wanting things to change fast will only leave you crashed and burned out. It’s like a thunderstorm raging through your system, leaving a mess behind that might even make things worse!

And yes, you might get small bursts of big steps forward, of big aha-moments, but most of the time it takes time to let it all sink in.

The things you’ve believed all your life, that have been planted in your system in your youth, by society, media, education and more. They take time to shake off and find your own inner truths. To unlearn.

It’s like expecting the weight you’ve gained over many years to disappear in two days. That doesn’t happen either. It takes time, and changing your eating and exercise habits.

If you’ve been conditioned to believe in the dominance theory in animal behaviour, even though the researchers that came up with it are admitting they were wrong, it takes time to change that belief.

How do you change?

By being open, asking questions. Don’t take anything you read, hear or see for granted.

But it is a choice, your choice, you always have a choice.

I’ve done this all my life, ever since I was a little kid. Question everything. Search for my own truths. And yes, sometimes that meant I came to the same conclusions, but… they were my own.

I even wrote an essay once that was only made up of questions. Around world issues. Around life. Nature. Politics. Best grade I ever got for an essay.

I must be a nightmare to schoolteachers, coaches and mentors, just because I question everything.

Especially when it is presented as the truth. That really triggers something in me. Maybe even to disprove the truth they present. Or at least make the ones that presented it question it themselves.

So, for instance, when I see posts on social media about the mind being set to focus on the negative, I immediately question this. And I have good reason to. Because when I look at a baby or a young child, I don’t see this at all. So… is this not learned behaviour? Conditioned? If so, we can certainly change this around.

When I see a post about a certain type of food being bad for you, I ask myself why? I look at the source of the article, and if it is purely unbiased. The same goes for any scientific paper that is presented. Who funded the research? Is it really done in the name of science? For the good of people? Or….

I know, questioning everything can be very tiring, but yes. I do. Religion is just a belief system. Because they rule out science. But science is also a religion. Because they rule out what they can’t “see”. Both have to admit at some point that over time a lot of their theories have proven or tested wrong. Or at least another truth as they first assumed.

I believe that a lot of what we are going through as human beings in these times have to do with the fact that we just take so much on as truth. That our inner wisdom and knowledge knows that a lot of this is not truth. At least not our truth. And it resists. Your body resists. Your mind resists. You feel this isn’t for you, but you’ve unlearned to be openminded, and curious like little children are. You have been “drilled” to take on things presented by others as true. And there is soooo much input nowadays. It is hard to discern. Taking a step back, retreat into stillness, will at least clear away the outer clutter and help you find your inner truths.

Nobody is born religious, I’ve never seen animals go to church or worship something else than life itself. That there is “something” that is guiding us, yes, for sure. But what that is? Nobody really knows, right? I call it Source, Great Spirit. And my anchor is Mother Earth, the one thing my whole system feels is real.

So, please, stay openminded, curious and ask questions.

Any questions?

Love and light

Diana

 

I quit!!

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Yes, I quit! As of now. I handed in my notice. I am leaving this way of life.

What?

Yes….

Really?

Yes….

But!

Okay, let me explain.

I am quitting trying to fit in a box. I no longer want to be labelled. For what I do. I just want to do who I am.

Over the years, I have tried. To fit in. To be a part of this system of trying to fit people in boxes, putting labels on them.

I’ve looked into astrology, numerology, did all kinds of personality tests, even was tested “positive” as being a certain Ayurveda type.

But I’ve discovered something. I tend to start living accordingly to the box. To the label.

Interesting, right? And I even do it to other people! And their pets! I tend to judge the book by the cover, or in this case, the label.

But… we are not labels, we are not the result of some tests conjured up by people trying to make sense of it.

We are not labels. We are not types. We are not statistics. We are all unique.

How did I run into this? It started with “admitting” to myself I am an empath. I didn’t want that label. Because with a label, people would start to treat me accordingly. And I even started treating myself that way. Be honest, if somebody says I am this or that, you will treat them accordingly, right? This is how people also become their illness.

I started reading the “lists” out there with traits and qualities of empaths. And even if I didn’t recognise myself in some of the things on the list, I was like, well, they will probably come out eventually.

And then it happens. I start to create a story. That will make the list come true. Maybe I wasn’t a true empath in the direct sense of the word, by reading the lists I started to become one. Thoughts become things, right? And as I have a beautiful mind, but also very powerful, I am creating a lot of things that are not me.

So, I quit. From now on I am going to do 100% me. No more labels, no more boxes.

I will find my own way, express my unique being fully. I will no longer try to fit in a box or put on a label that doesn’t fit me. I will not try to adapt to the box or the label.

Isn’t this true authenticity? Being and doing 100% me?

I am still on the road to discovering that me, or maybe it is recovering. Maybe I’ve been addicted to the tests and labels. Collecting the boxes. To avoid going in and just being me. The fear of not being enough. To trying to understand me. But I am already all I need to be. Just me.

And I promise I will stop doing that to others too. Just approaching you as I would animals and nature. Fully accepting you for who you are. Not for what you try to be, not the label you or someone else put on you, not for what you do.

No standard forms or 10 step plans. Just approaching you as the unique being you are.

Are you doing fully you? Or are you trying to fit in, living the label?

Love and light,

Diana. Just Diana.